I watched ‘HER’ again yesterday night.
I don’t know how but that movie has actually left an impact on me. I just can’t keep my mind off the voice. The computer voice. Voice like a real person. Emotions like real person even though I know are artificial. I imagined while lying on my bed after the movie was over, how life might be if I also get one of these things (if I can call it a thing). Then I remember that maybe I already had one of these things. I am also like one of these things.
Some part of my brain keeps talking to me and acting as it might be a third person. It keeps me in check and keeps reminding myself about things I should do and should not do. I stand in front of the mirror and I don’t know what I am trying to look at. The face. The eyes. The cloths. The hairs. It is so confusing. But then my mind start talking to me. Trying to say to me that I need to smile. A sense of tiredness sweeps over my face. But then my mind again ask me to take a deep breath and turn away my face. It knows more I try to see in mirror more I am likely to stay longer in front of it. I don’t know why I am saying all this but this has taken over my mind while writing.
I have come to office like any other Monday morning and stare at faces. All are smiling and looking back at me for just a second. And then the heads go down again on their systems. I just take my seat and start typing. What the hell is wrong with me. I don’t even have the energy to walk to any other persons desk and say hello. I just hope no one comes on mine also. I just don’t want to smile. It is so hard to smile.
My new passion these days is twitter. I just keep on checking after few minutes for any updates. Talking endless and tweeting anything that comes on my mind. It’s so liberating. Last few days I have messaging about how extremism is increasingly becoming dangerous to world, especially Islamic and how it should be dealt with. Couple of people from across the globe started to respond also. I guess it’s more easy to talk to people you have never met and nor likely to meet in future. Strangers are more easy to talk to then people you meet daily. Solace in unknown I guess. Workable for long might be a question. Well anyway, answers are like always never with me. One thing I have observed about me…guess all gender’s might agree. It is more relaxing to talk to a person of opposite sex. Males I feel are more happy to talk to females and might be vice versa also. Reason can be debated. Its sounds and feels more passionate and mysterious when opposite gender takes interest in your message, especially someone not seen ever. We after all, are more happy to imagine someone loving us with passion shown in movies. And not necessarily in real life. Imaginary again.
This is why I think movies like ‘HER’ has been trying to project and ringed a bell inside. The actor in the movie develops a relationship but doesn’t get desperate to have a face for the voice. Social media and platforms to speak to strangers across globe has become such a hit. We started with things like yahoo messenger with groups full of strangers but common topics from top of mind. Chatting with strangers to larger platform of twitter. I am not counting Facebook where privacy and closed groups of known friends exist. Whether in future these social platforms will isolate us or make us into larger groups of like-minded has to be seen. I mean people will surely love to talk to stranger’s like now but when it will come to meeting face to face or interact on close personal basis, problems might happen. I mean my own case, I can share my mind more own social network and with strangers rather than sitting in a coffee shop with friends.
Am I becoming a socially unstable. Can’t say. But certainly I am enjoying this sitting in the dark and looking towards light coming from keyhole.
